I'm Tired Of Pretending Like My Life Is Perfect Online -

Because its not.

I feel like only a month or two ago I was telling you guys I was burnt out… and here I am again, coming back to say I’m just exhausted.

But do you know what makes me feel even more exhausted? Pretending like my life is perfect to everyone around me. One of the very first reasons I wanted to start a blog was to give myself a place to dump all of my raw, honest thoughts. I love what this blog has become. Aside from being a mum, wellness is truly my passion, and I’m so grateful to have multiple platforms where I can express that.

But when I started taking social media more seriously as a career, I naturally began polishing my real life, suppressing the messy parts of it. And if I’m being honest, I think I lost myself a little over the last few years working so hard to cover those parts up.

This is probably the most honest I’ve ever been on any platform. I constantly compare myself to others on Instagram, and sometimes it’s soul-destroying. My job as a content creator is to keep things clean and professional, but what’s the point of sharing your life online if you’re not being 100% honest? Even if it is your job?

When I started getting brand deals, the urge to suppress things grew even stronger. Suddenly it wasn’t just an audience watching my life, brands were too. I’ll never be able to fully put into words how grateful I am to be where I am today and to have worked with the brands I have so far. But the more time goes on, the more disconnected from reality I feel. It’s exhausting constantly putting on a front so I can look like the other “perfect” mums online.

So this is the moment I stop.

This is the moment I start letting it out, being more honest not just with others, but with myself. Because this is real life, not Pinterest.

Going forward, I’m excited to share not just the highs, but the straightforward days, the lows, and everything in between. From one very exhausted mum to another: we are all in this together. That connection is one of the most real and meaningful things I’ve found through this space.

I love you all,

Nicole x